The Dragon Wolves Group Pack Discussion
Posted 2021-03-03 15:24:03
Just... if you see this, please don't tell the others that I said this. I don't want them to worry about me. I don't want anyone to worry about me. |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:29:21
No one deserves to worry about me. |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:31:56 (edited)
maybe i am the problem. Just another insane person on the web. |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:40:52
dragon, i worrie about you, its why i left in the first place, to give u guys a break, but i wanted to make a plan for when i got back so we wouldnt have another repeat, its why im in so much pain after every argument and breakdown, because everytime i hurt you it hurts me to see you hurt, its why i want to push to stop me from lashing out, because a little anger to me means nothing, but it hurts you guys |
KiraKiona #33761 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:43:28
you make mistakes, but i do to, i just want you to acnolage and push to fix them, its why im fine when i get told and reminded when im making a mistake, its when im actually not making the mistake that it hurts me, but its not just you, not one bit |
KiraKiona #33761 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:45:13
damnit. i guess you wouldn't know whats haunting me if i never told you, hah. of course. i hide far too much from you all. |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:48:26
then tell me, and we can work to help, i hid way to much before to, and its how i got here, i never spoke up when you guys said somthing that hurt untill it got to the point of me breaking down, i never told you guys anything about how i was feeling untill recently, and has i said somthing sooner, this whole mess wouldnt be a thing |
KiraKiona #33761 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:56:00
i just feel like who i am isnt enough anymore. ive worked for years to improve myself and i feel like im just failing again, as a person. failing to stay positive and supportive again. failing to keep up in school. remember when i said im 'naturally competitive"? thats only part of it, actually. i have a constant need to be ahead, to stay active, to be able to say 'look mom and dad. i did it.' or whoever im trying to impress i dont know why, but i constantly feel like im trying to prove im worth it. and i hate the moments where i feel like i dont i feel useless, like a disappointment, like i dont belong |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |
Posted 2021-03-03 15:57:23
it might be a result of the constant pushing to 'fix' me maybe it pushed me a little too far or maybe im embarrassed by my adhd or something like that and i havent realized it yet |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |
Posted 2021-03-03 16:00:12
i just say 'naturally competitive' to mask it, so noone sees what it actually means |
Ya Dragon Gurl #32405 |